Well...I'm finally here

... Wherever "here" is.

It's the feeling of being in a room at first pitch black. Then there is light and you realize you're in the room by yourself. And then the room is filled with people, you are standing in the middle and no one is talking to you.

No one notices you.

But that's alright.

In fact. It's comforting.

Being okay with "what is" is comforting.

There is nothing to fight.

Nothing to flee.

Nothing to obsess

Or to repress.

It's the feeling of standing by a river bank and feeling the breeze and warm sun on your face

and in that moment

you are in presence of the purest essence of "what is."

For me,

this represents Reiki.

Please understand,

even as little as two years I had no conceivable thought of my life coming anywhere close to where it is now.

Five years ago I was the epitome of a neurotic wreck. Many times the madness felt like much too much.

But I have always known that there has been something waiting for me on the horizon. I just had to survive the demons on my journey.

So far so good.

I am reminded of a passage in the Lotus Sutra of being so filled with light that I am banished from the dark world. My inner light is so much brighter now. I reflect and attract that which I choose to have in my existence. I am so very grateful.

I'd like to say that it's been "perfect." But you can't learn from perfect; no matter the form.

Perfect means you don't stumble over your own feet.

Perfect means you don't pass gas (ever).

Perfect means you learned to tie your shoes on the first go.

Perfect means you never had to wear a diaper the moment you came out of the womb (actually, that sounds odd, but I digress).

I have a chiropractor (he's a very nice man that I do not have to see often).

I see a psychiatrist (she's a very nice lady that has helped me through a lot of stuff that Reiki has brought to the surface)

I have hypertension (which is genetic and the "last stand" out of all of the health issues I have had since becoming a Reiki practitioner).

I am priceless, but I have flaws.

All things considered I'd say that I'm doing well.

With Reiki, situations that 1st looked like problems or obstacles become situations or opportunities.

Sure, technically I'm fiddling with words, but it's profound when you look at something happening and actually choose how you look at it.

That doesn't happen overnight.

It's funny that even in these moments of "typing from the hip" the "aha" moments that surface.

Thank you allowing me to share.

More will come later.

Take care.

Kristie